A 12-year Old Girl Watches Titanic

Let me start this blog post by mentioning that I’m not a hoarder. I’ve moved a dozen times in adulthood, each time learning how to pare down to the bare essentials.

That said, my parents haven’t moved much, so until recently I kept a big (and I mean big) box of old notebooks in their storage room. Now that I have a house of my own and intend to stay put at least for a little while, I hauled back the giant box and rifled through old notebooks and diaries like a treasure hunt.

(A cringe-inducing treasure hunt.)

So today, just for fun, I thought I’d share with you this entry I found, written in green pen by my 12-year old self, every single line of that tiny diary page crammed to bursting. I maintained the original misspellings as well, because why not?

January 24, 1998

I watched Titanic with Diana and it’s an expirence I’ll never forget. Leonardo Dicaprio is SO cute! The cutest actor I’ve ever seen. But it was gross when he saw Rose naked and drew her. I was so freaked out at the end. I don’t know why. It wasn’t really scary, it was just sad. I cried very hard and I shook very bad. Well, she kept her promise with Jack to not die from the ship, but to die old and warm in her bed. And she did. She went and met Jack again and everyone who had died watched them kiss. I missed many parts to explain, but I don’t have any more room.


Yes, past self, it was scary, stop posturing. I’m not even ashamed to admit it, Titanic was like a horror movie to me.

Do any of you keep old, embarrassing notebooks?


  • http://sexycardi.blogspot.ca/ Erin MacNeil

    Well I mean, Leonardo DiCaprio WAS super cute! Haha, this made me giggle, it is very quintessentially twelve 🙂 The first time I watched it properly I was with my friends when we were 13/14 it was ridiculous, all of us were way too tender-hearted for it.

    I think there are a few journals kicking around from when I was younger, but I tended to tear pages out when I felt they no longer represented my thoughts, so, fortunately/unfortunately very few embarrassing notes in my house.


    • http://www.ohwaffle.com Allysia K

      Yeah it made me laugh as well, and also facepalm. Ha ha! I think the reason I’ve hoarded all these old notebooks is a complete and utter lack of shame. I once looked through the diary of my 17-year old self with my current boyfriend, just for laughs – it was mortifying but also made me realize, with immense relief, that I have in fact grown as a person, to the point where I don’t even recognize that iteration of myself!

  • http://www.chocolateandsunset.com/ Summer

    I think I was about Twelve years old too when I first watched that movie. And the memory still sticks… Beautiful but horrifying!


  • http://fritesandfries.com/ Annie Wang

    Oh god, I was the same age. I thought Leo was the cutest thing ever with the hair (that is equivalent to the Justin Bieber hair of 5 years ago).

    I tried journaling when I was around that age but I was easily embarrassed then so I would rip them up after letting them sit for a few days like Erin.

    • http://www.ohwaffle.com Allysia K

      Ha ha, you’re right about the hair! So late 90s!